Offensive Magick.

We talk a lot of Defensive Magick. You are "defending" your home. You are "protecting it".

I want to talk about Offensive magick. As in YOU have the ball and YOU need to keep it.

This delves a bit into the "blacker" side of things. Definitely more the dark gray over light gray.

Lately, on several fronts I have come under attack. Someone I thought was a very good friend of mine decided I wasn't "smart" enough to work in HR. So she decided I should work as a Cashier. I don't really know what her reasoning's were behind this. I know some mistakes were made. Some of them were mine. I fully admit to that. A great many of them were not made by me, but I was blamed for them. So, she decides I should work in the cafeteria as a stock clerk, and a cashier. Knowing full well how crappy my body is. Knowing I have RA, that I cannot lift things like I used to be able to. You bet your ass I am doing it to the best of my ability. However. I cannot deny that my emotional side has been pretty freaking strong and frankly scary at this point in my life.

Next, I learn that in the apartment complex I live in the Managers husband, is threatening to get us thrown out. He doesn't work there. He doesn't have any power there. He has literally no control over anything. Yet my home is being threatened. This has sent me somewhat into a pretty good panic attack.

So, here goes. I on my guard. I have the "Ball" meaning my house, I have control over how I feel. I am now however going to keep everyone who wants to take from me pay for what they are doing. I will no longer sit back, doing the "fluffy bunny" wait for something to happen to them sort of way. I know my Karmic Debt. I know what I have done wrong, I know what I have done right. I know when I have wronged people and I know when I have made sure I have taken care of what needed to be taken care of so they were taken care of. I have helped people move, I've baked cookies and taken food to people who need it. I've given clothes to people. I know I am a good person.

Yes, I know as well when I have been an absolute bitch. I am prepared for any Karmic Debt that will come back to me. Starting right now though. There will be steps taken to make damned sure those people do not fuck with me, or my family any more.

And yes that does include my family who seems to think we are "less than them"
who are "worthless" to them.

That's right. I am calling them out on this.

They will be getting theirs.


I will post more on the rituals I will be doing and everything along those lines later. For now. This is just me, stating my intentions. 

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The Moon

For me the moon is both very easy, and very hard to sit down and write about. My journey with the moon began when I was barely 3 weeks old experiencing my first full moon. From that age, I never really slept during the full moon. I was wide awake. However I first started, on my own, paying attention to the moons cycles was when I was about 12. I read Jean M. Auel's book "The Valley of the Horses". When Ayla talked about noticing that her period always came at a certain time of the moon, I started to wonder if mine did. So, I wrote it down. Imagine my disappointment when with my body being the asshole that it is, my periods would sometimes be 5-6 months apart. There was of course the usual "Oh holy shit, what if I am pregnant" that any 12-16 year old would have. Nope. That wasn't the case. In fact I was in all honesty not very likely to have this happen to me. Ever. 

The moon grows, and shrinks. It has cycles that have been proven to affect human bodies, the tides and all sorts of odd things. I have always had a hard time sleeping during the full moon. Conversely during the dark of the moon, it feels like I can barely stay awake. 

During my teens, I became Mormon. This drew me away from any form of Moon worship. After all there is but One God. How can I be interested in the Moon? Bah. By the time I was 19, I discovered again how delighted I was in the moon, the stars and the like. I began my avid study once more. She welcomed me back like a lost child. I would moon bathe, always more comfortable in the light of the moon than the light of the sun. The sun was "too" bright. Too intense for me. The dark of the moon, while I never can really get past a bed during it, is my favorite time of the month however. 

Hecate chose me long ago. Giving me an affinity with dogs. Even Raging Angry Dogs, just curl up like puppies at my feet. Three Way cross roads are always a hint of mystery to me. I, love to take the road less traveled by. I celebrate of course the full moons. Doing small chargings and the like. It is the dark moons that draw me to wanting to do my deeper Magicks. 

However, I easily start new things, struggle with completing them. Esbats for that reason are difficult. The slow acting ones for me are easy though. Hence why I love and adore the Dark Moon Magick. 

The full moon is great for setting the stage for new things, doing magickal healing on "others" not yourself. Conversely the dark of the moon is for more personal things. Like Personal growth, self healing and the like. 

In my tradition there are 13 moons, each have their name. Beginning in January we have the 

Wolf Moon

Storm moon

Chaste moon

Seed moon

Hare Moon

Dyad Moon

Mead Moon

Wyrt Moon

Barley Moon

Blood moon

Snow Moon, 

Oak Moon

There is also a "floating" Moon. The Blue moon. This happens when there are 2 full moons in a calendar month. BLue moons are the Goal moon. Set slow acting goals on this time. Like...graduating from college, buying a new house. Those sort of things. Record progress moon to moon.

Blessed be. 

Fridr

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and I have no idea what sort of title to put.

I suck. I really do. I haven't been able to sit down and do any form of blog post to save my life lately. It's been a pretty Magickal world for me. It really has. Two people have messaged me asking to get together and study. That to me is holy crap exciting. I cannot really explain it all. Me? I'm not that experienced or anything along those lines. I have no real "skills". I am such a hedgewitch it's not even funny. I get energized when it rains, I soak up sunlight like a lizard, yet never can tan.

The thought of casting a circle gives me a heart attack. I'm not comfortable with how I perform Magick in public. Maybe however it is the Goddess telling me I need to. In fact. I had to be bullied by someone into writing this blog post. I just couldn't focus long enough to be able to do this. How utterly daft is that?

I am, again getting very hedgewitchy. None of this fits in with the "letter" for the pagan blog project which is just annoying. This week I believe is P. Ugh?

Anyway. I wrote, I feel better. I might write again later.

I probably will.

Loves Fridr

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Favorite things.

So, my favorite blogger, Jenny Lawson posted her favorite things. I got to thinking what an absolutely awesome affirmation that would be. Tonight is the first night of the full moon, and so I will begin with this.
After all this is the time for abundance, for joy, for excitement and living! Here are my top twenty  however many I might possibly come up with items that I just love. Most will be Pagan. Others will just be random "oh hell yes " and others will be things I have discovered over the year and fell in love with.
All will fit in with my student budget.

I cannot live without the Hello! brand toothpaste from Walgreens. I just discovered it. The pink grapefruit flavor? AMAZING! The best toothpaste ever

I know, I can't belief a toothpaste made my list either.
but it's all natural!

Next on my list, honestly is my couch to 5k app. It is Runtastic and I just love it. Amazingly easy to use. Just cannot say enough about it. As of right now I have ran 4 miles, Nope that's not a lot but considering before t his I had not run in 10 years? Heck yes!

Next, purely pagan this is. But a Selenite Pen, it's used for writing inscriptions on candles and the like as well as regularly focusing energy. Most shops have them any where from $8-20. Really cheap, sweet and oh so nice. I just ordered mine. I am so excited! I cannot wait to see how my spells and the like change

Seriously, it's a crystal pen!
I bet you can dip the tip in ink and write with it also.

White Willow Bark. I have Rheumatoid Arthritis, I cannot honestly express how my life has changed since I started using White Willow Bark, as opposed to my tylenol 3's exclusively. I still use my t3's because sometimes the pain is just so much that is what I have to do in order to function. However, I am more mobile, I have more energy. Extra bonus? I give it to my Winnie the Weeny when she is in pain also. She is now acting like a puppy again.

Isn't she adorable! That ear always flops over like a dork

Joe Boxer yoga pants. I cannot describe the epicness of these yoga pants. Comfy, absorbent, and they don't get in the way on the treadmill. Freaking love mine Epic Yoga Pants

This is an "I have to have" for work. OMG cause OMG it is a DRAGON stapler!!!

http://www.celtictrims.com/product-p/15275.htm

Dragon Stapler

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wisdom, knowledge and understanding

Wisdom, Knowledge and Understanding

by Larry Kibby

Great Spirit Grandfather,

I send these words to you,

Hear my prayer.

For these are my words,

To Father Sun,

To Grandmother Moon,

To Mother Earth

To all my relations,

That have been Created as I.

To the Four Winds,

That bring us the

Seasons of Life.

To the East

Where Father Sun rises

Bringing to us a new day

A new meaning of life,

A light in which to see

The path before us.

To the South

Where the warm air comes to us

Bringing heat and warmth,

The seasons of spring

And summer.

To the West

Where Father Sun goes

To bring to us darkness,

So as we may see the universe

And search for the questions

Of our life.

To the North

Where the cold winds come from

Bringing to us the seasons

Of fall and winter.

Oh Great Spirit

Hear my words

For to you I offer

My heart and soul

You made me

What I am

And I am Indian

America's Prisoners of War

I pray for my people of the past

Whose blood covers this our Mother Earth

I pray now as an Indian

Blood of my Ancestors.

Great Spirit Grandfather,

Look down upon

Your people,

For we are humble

Before you.

We seek your guidance,

So that we your people

May walk forever

In a proud manner

Before you.

Great Spirit Grandfather,

You gave your people

The breath of life,

So that we may live

With dignity and pride,

To always know

And understand

That life was meant for us

Your most humble

Traditional people,

And all that

Was Created

And given

The breath of life.

Great Spirit Grandfather,

Let my heart

Soul and mind

Be always strong with

Wisdom, knowledge

And Understanding.

Great Spirit Grandfather

Hear my words

For wisdom

So that I may open

My eyes and

See all that

Is good around me.

Great Spirit Grandfather

Hear my words

For wisdom

So that I may open my ears

And hear all that is good

Around me.

For I am humble

Before you.

I seek the strength

To continue on this path

That I travel on before you

In a most Sacred manner.

Great Spirit Grandfather

Hear my words

For they are words

That come from the

Heart, soul and mind,

And are filled with

Wisdom, knowledge and

Understanding.

Great Spirit Grandfather

My words are for you

To know and understand

That in a most Sacred manner

I honor and respect

The life you have put before me,

I seek the strength

To forever continue

Upon this Sacred path.

Great Spirit Grandfather

Upon the four winds

Are my words for strength

For they come from the

Heart, soul and mind

Words I send to you

In a Sacred manner.

Great Spirit Grandfather

Let all

The wisdom, knowledge and understanding

Be my strength

To continue on this path

That I travel on before you

As a Traditional Native American Indian,

Now and forever.

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So...this is my psych paper

Application Paper

“Psychologies role in Radiology”

By

{Me}

{Psych 235}
{Human Growth and Development}

07/18/2013

As a radiology technician, I will use the information learned within human growth and development in many different ways. In this essay I will illustrate how I will use Trust vs. Mistrust, Identity vs. Role Confusion, Intimacy vs. Isolation, and Integrity vs. Despair. I will also discuss how Erik Erikson’s 8 stages of human development will be vastly important within my chosen career.

Trust Versus Mistrust, within the radiology profession I will be seeing people on their absolute worst days. They will need to be able to trust that I am capable of performing my job with the upmost professionalism. I will have to, in the 5-10 minutes they are with me be able to give them the safest feeling environment possible. Since, often what I will be working with is people that are injured, that sometimes their lives have fallen apart due to injury, or suspected serious body damage I will have to understand how to understand their body language as well as communicate with my own that I am going to make sure they are taken care of in the absolute best possible way. If they mistrust me in any way shape or form it will mean that their already stressful situation has just jumped to a much higher level, therefore leaving them feeling unsafe.

Identity vs. Role Confusion, Erikson theorized that people made identity changes, and crisis in several different parts of their lives. These transitions I will have to knowhow to speak to that when they see me. People who are going through a midlife crisis, or just having their first baby, all of these are experiencing a psychological change, or shift within their lives will obviously be coming in and needing x-rays, and CT scans. When this happens, I will have to be able to empathize and understand where they are coming from and not make fun of them because they just crashed their motorcycle that they purchased due to realizing they are 44 and will never be a classically trained opera singer.

Intimacy vs. Isolation, one of the strongest reasons people come to work is to have a social outlet. Within the radiology department I will be able to get past my general love of isolation and turn that into having the participation and enjoyment allotted to me within my working environment. Being part of a large organization is a bit frightening for me as I am just plain not a “group” type person. I will have to overcome this by forcing myself to become an integral part of that team. Intimacy is something I myself struggle with, so bringing it into my career seems like such an off thing and out of character for myself that it will be a challenge.

Integrity vs. Despair, as I grow older, and as colleagues grow older we will be faced with the fact that our younger colleagues will have ‘newer’ training than we do. We will have to face that our knowledge, because what we learned during our two year degree’s might be taught in their first years where as we had to go back for additional training as technology advances. As we reach retirement age, we may have people thinking we are obsolete. Whereas our years of experience mean that we know just by looking what someone’s brain looks like and if they might possibly be having cognitive issues and functioning, theirs may not tell them this. It will be a balance between knowing our own intelligence and worth vs. thinking we are old and out dated. I see this being something I will have to face a lot throughout my career.

Erikson’s stages of development will be prevalent in all that I do as a radiology technician. I will have to be aware of trust vs. mistrust, autonomy vs. shame and doubt, initiative vs. guilt, industry vs. inferiority, identity vs. role confusion, intimacy vs. isolation, generatively vs. stagnation, and integrity vs. despair. All of his stages of life will be used within my career, therefore making what I learned in this class useful throughout my career. Obviously, I will use this in my home life as well, making sure that my daughter grows up to be a healthy woman, and my mother ends her life feeling useful and productive. Further this will influence my relationships as I work, and socially. Any future spouse, be that male or female will have the joy of me knowing how to speak to them and for lack of a better term manipulate them. Knowing how the power of suggestion with men will mean the plants get potted correctly will make them want to do more around the house, or with girlfriends being able to talk to them about future plans without making them feel threatened or not loved on the same level. All of this will be used. My daughter will benefit from me knowing how to teach her and explain to her at her own psychological developmental stage.

In conclusion, this class has been a great benefit for me, academically, socially, career wise, and in my home life.  Through the application of the principles learned in this class it will enable me to get out of my own shell, perhaps calm down a little bit when erroneous statements are made around me and help to be able to clearly and succinctly make those around me more comfortable.

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spell writing challenge

So...

i just posted one of those. "Name a movie without the letter S in it".

So

as a challenge.

Write a magick spell without the letter T in it

here goes

"Lord and Lady
blessed be
for blessings given me
I give grace, my place in life
is from you,
like a knife
i sever the bad
rejoice in  gnarly"

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